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[Sep. 2nd, 2005|01:52 am] |
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so i hate livejournal but what the hell im bored so i will update i guess. college is great met a lot of cool ppl miss ppl from home but its great. tonight i went to the movies with alyssa. had a good time. shes cool and we both wanted to see cahrlie and the chocolate factory so i finally went and saw it. had an awesome awesome time. then just chilled in my room with alyssa, jade and some of their friends from town. that was melancholy we will just say that tomorrow football game and then some fun hanging out activities. Fire up chips. Hoosier daddy?(we are playing IU) but i have class at nine so i will talk to you later peace
noah |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|01:11 am] |
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| | FOB-nobody puts baby in the corner | ] |
leave for central finally in a couple hours so here is the new address and phone number. Give me a call or send me a letter. peace out muskegon
400 E OJIBWAY CT RM 021
MOUNT PLEASANT, MI 48858
(989) 774-4615
-Noah |
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| Screw Drama/Eat-a-thon |
[Jul. 31st, 2005|02:16 am] |
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| | The Tide- Rest | ] |
screw drama it only leads to more and more drama. This whole thing is stupid. yes i am pissed because things were said that demean my charater and that is total bull shit but there is nothing i can do i guess. whatever. I know the truth and so do all of my true friends, and so should you. But believe what you want to believe. doesn't matter to me. I leave for college in less than a month and i know who i will be hanging out with when i come back. Will you make the cut? its not in my hands its in yours.
Well with that out of the way. I tried to get a hold of abby to fulfill our plans for tonight but i couldnt get a hold of her, so i went and hung out with my "new friends". We went fishing and then went to buckleys where the real fun began. I have never been there before ten so tonight was a night for capitalization of new experiences. THE ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET!!!!! Jim origionally was vagina and didnt want to pay the extra two dollars for THE ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET!!!!! but after they were out of his desired chick stip basket(i know its a real surprise that they were out of something!!!) he grew a pair of ball and got the buffet. It started as a friendly endulgence into a prime deal of epic(yes i mean epic) porportions but soon spiraled into a sick and twisted game of eatery made by Mr. William Bailey. A competition was placed in front of us. The game was simple(or so we thought) whoever eats the most plates wins a secret prize chosen by Ms. Sadie Glore and Mr. William Bailey.(which i still dont know what the prize was) and a promise of a free meal by Billy(got sick of writing his proper name) if we finished 8 plates. No Rules applied. Going No. 2 and Vomiting were allowed,acceptable, encouraged, and applied. Me and Jim were neck and neck and were pretty full around plat number five. We wanted to be done, but jim wanted to puke and keep at it. He was unsuccesful in this endeavor but I on the other hand can vomit on command and did so and kept on eating. Jim knew he must continue for the prize was assumed to be great. around plate 7 i was up one half a plate on jim and we both moved on from meatloaf, mashed potatoes, pasta, ribs, chicken, and potato salad to much simpler pudding, and applesauce. I believe plate number 7 was applesauce for the both of us. I am almost done with number 7 when i have an unignorable urge to go no.2. i qickly go and do my business and jim has finished his applesauce. I have two spoonfuls left and feeling like hell i suck it up and take them down. This was trouble! soon after i feel another unavoidable urge to vomit, this time unvoluntary. I quickly head for the door to run around the building to the window where we were currently sitting. however i did not make it to the window. As soon as i get my foot out the door, vomit flies. but only a little bit. I knew more was on the way so again i hustled and bustled to the window, and again i did not make it. I made it to a bush and all that lovely food i had recently eaten, all 7 plates came rumbling up from my stomach, through my esophogas, and out of my mouth. It was extremely painful but satisfactory because now i have more room for another plate for an almost gaurenteed win and a free meal. I go back in and take down another plate of meatballs, rise and meatloaf stuffed to the top. I only needed a half plate for the win and a free meal so why over-exert myself. I finsh the plate and it was the end. The competiton had ended. The prize, i dont know, the free meal.......Billy is four and voided the deal with crossed fingers which was caught on camera. Low blow dude low blow. In conclusion there were no winners or losers in this competion. Both Jim and I earned some respect for our heart, determination, and appetite. We both went through blood, sweat, and tears(minus the blood and tears, but it was really hott in there) to prove ourselves to each other and to everyone who witnessed the events today. But most importantly we saw who was hardcore(me and jim),who were softcocks(Billy) and who just were weirded out, impressed, and intrigued by our silly competion(sadie, alecia, and the two other guys whom i dont know the name). Jim you made me proud tonight and i was glad to be at your side eating tonight. You are still a winner in my book. But in the official eat-a-thon score book i won. But thats not important.
ok well its time i head out to bed good night all
P.S. anyone wanna go to buckleys tomorrow and get the buffet? jim? |
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| wow its been a long time..........coming and for me to update |
[May. 14th, 2005|01:36 am] |
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| | Tim Mcgraw- Red Rag Top | ] |
you have exhausted anything i ever felt for you. mediocricy has been a friend of mine for far too long. Not anymore. You only get what your give apparently doesn't hold true in this situation. I have bent over backwards and gotten shit in return. Apparently our idea of best friends differ greatly. I cannot deal with the pain,fucked up emotions, and drama anymore. This has been a feeling that i thought i have been "dealing" with for quite some time now, when really i am only dealing with it now. I am tired of playing the bad guy when and taking blame when i have done nothing wrong. All i wanted was for a little in return for all i have put in to this friendship, and i haven't gotten 1/1000 of it. You are an amazing person but do not live up to your potential. Your priorities are a little out of order. I have sit back for far too long, feeling jealous because you spend your time with people you talk to maybe once a month, rather than spend a minute with me. But then again if i didnt call you or go way out of my way to even talk to you, we wouldnt talk except for maybe once a month. If this is what you see as a best friend im sorry. That doesnt sound like a best friend activity to me. It actually seems like the exact opposite. I cant continue to do just sit back and settle. Its ridiculous that i have for so long. I do truly love you to death, and thats why i am doing this because i dont want to hold you down, and be a nuisance, which is how it has felt for the past year. Just learn from it. Thats all you can do.
"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, and don't put up with people who are reckless with yours"
-The Sunscreen Song
Well, I looked at her face and then I knew she changed,
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!
So I sat in my room for 27 days,
No she never called, I had something to say!
No she never called, I had something to say!
I don't know much and I don't know how...
Why would she put me through such torture,
I would have given my life for her,
She was the one that knocked me over,
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner
Well, I heard she's great and her new boyfriend's lame,
She can go to hell I'll never be the same!
She can go to hell I'll never be the same!
And these open wounds will heal with time they say,
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!
I don't know much and I don't know how...
Why would she put me through such torture,
I would have given my life for her,
She was the one that knocked me over,
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner
I was twenty and she was eighteen,
We were just about as wild as we were green,
In the ways of the world.
Well she picked me up in that red rag top,
We were free of the folks and hiding from the cops,
On a summer night, running all the red lights.
We parked way out in a clearing in a grove,
And the night was as hot as a coal burning stove.
We were cooking with gas
knew it had to last
In the back of that red rag top
She said please don’t stop
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Well the very first time her mother met me
Her green eyed girl had been a mother to be, for two weeks.
I was out of a job and she was in school,
And life was fast and the world was cruel,
We were young and wild, we decided not to have a child
So we did what we did and we tried to forget
And we swore up and down, there would be no regrets in the morning light,
But on the way home that night
On the back of that red rag top
She said please don’t stop
Loving me
We took one more trip around the sun,
But it was all make believe in the end,
No I can’t say where she is today,
I can’t remember who I was back then.
Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins,
And there’s no such thing as what might have been
That’s a waste of time, drive you outta’ your mind.
I was stopped at a red light just yesterday,
Beside a young girl in a cabriolet and her eyes were green,
And I was in an old scene
I was back in that red rag top
On the day she stopped
Loving me |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|10:23 pm] |
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| | Thrice- To awake and avenget the dead | ] |
so basically i hate everyone right now. seriously not in a good mood. im sick of having to deal with all this shit so im not anymore. Fuck you ok have a good one bye |
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| do it bitches |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|09:18 pm] |
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| | Vendetta Red- Accident Sex | ] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? |
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| new song |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|12:28 am] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | The Tide- Table For Two | ] |
Bleeding Tears
tonight my heart bleeds these tears
filled with pain, and hurt, and all my worst fears
i know its not right
i know its crazy
but still i cant let go
when i hear his name
violence, it flows through my veins
somehow still only love remains
i fight through although i cannot see
what makes you love him
and not love me
i try, i lie, but still cannot understand
why i continue to fall into these traps again
tonight my heart bleeds these tears
filled with pain, and hurt, and all my worst fears
i know its not right
i know its crazy
but still i cant let go
the happiness you bring to me
overcomes all the pain i see
so i am a fool, i am to blame
its all so different yet still the same
i strive, i bleed, yet still i do
what my addictions tell me to
through thick and thin
heaven and hell
i still need you
i still need you
i cant handle it myself
you bring me hope
please dont go
please dont go
tonight my heart bleeds these tears
filled with pain, and hurt, and all my worst fears
i know its not right
i know its crazy
but still i cant let go |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 28th, 2005|10:40 pm] |
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| | Fallout Boy-Pretty in punk | ] |
Old songs that im posting/reposting,and one fallout boy song, all directed to the same person.......
Another Tragedy
take this ship down
throw it all away
i cant live like this no more
liveing in the lies you say
when you take,
me for granted
and torture my heart
i should have known freom the start
that your no good
so kill me now
release me from this agony
take this heart and smash it to the ground
cuz im distraught
from this pain you put me through
cant handle it no more its time for me to go
heres your knife,
i pulled it from my back
placed ever so perfectly
through the middle of my heart
split in half
its how i feel
betrayed and underminded
by your selfish ways that you confide in
so kill me now
release me from this agony
take this heart and smash it to the ground
cuz im distraught
from this pain you put me through
cant handle it no more its time for me to go
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Heavens Light
this girl i met the other night
was like the heavens first star light
and even if this time cant last
i hope it travels not so fast
the artists hands dont make the art
instead they find whats in the heart
and if thats so, its only true
im now an artist since i met you
for youur beauty reflects the sun
our shortened time was filled wiht fun
and so i ask the heavens why
they finally heard these tears i cry
you see an angel is proof for me
to end my lifes misery
and so i pray that some day soon
ill find this girl among the moon
so watch the sky when stars are bright
to see this girl wiht heavens light
becasue till know ive felt defeat
but now for once my soul is complete
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Pretty in Punk
Walking off that stage tonight,
I know what you're thinking,
and he stands alone because he's high on himself.
But if you only knew...
I was terrified and would you mind if I sat next to you,
and watched you smile.
So many kids, but I only see you,
and I don't think you notice me.
Well I've seen your boyfriend
and I don't think he treats you right.
But that's none of my business, is it?
I'm not the way you think I am.
I'm not the way you think I am.
The only girl who ever gave me the time
was the one who only wanted five minutes of mine.
Knocking boots in the back, how degrading is that?
I decline.
I was terrified and would you mind if I sat next to you,
and watched you smile.
So many kids, but I only see you,
and I don't think you notice me.
Well I've seen your boyfriend
and I don't think he treats you right.
But that's none of my business, is it?
I'm not the way you think I am.
I'm not the way you think I am.
I'm not the way you think I am.
alrighty peace
-Noah |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 22nd, 2005|08:52 pm] |
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| | straylight run- Exisentialism on Prom Night | ] |
it takes more time than i've ever had
drains the life from me
makes me want to forget
as young as i was, i felt older back then
more disciplined, stronger and certain
but i was scared to death of eternity
i was saved by grace
but destroyed by naivety
and i lied to myself
and said it was for the best
so now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
i've disregarded what i was
now that i'm older
and i know much more than i did back then
but the more i learn
the more i can't understand
and i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink to much and don't believe in much of anything
and i lie to myself
and say "it's for the best."
we're moving forward, but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on something that will never come |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|12:00 am] |
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| | straylight run- Exisentialism on Prom Night | ] |
when the sun came up
we were sleeping in
sunk inside our blankets
sprawled across the bed
and we were dreaming
there are moments when i know it
and the world revolves around us
and we're keeping it
keeping it all going
this delicate balance
vulnerable
all knowing
Chorus
(sing like you think no one's listening)
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would kill for this
(sing like you think no one's listening)
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would....
sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything
we're glad for what we've got
done with what we've lost
our whole lives laid out right in front of us
Chorus
sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything |
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[Jan. 19th, 2005|05:26 pm] |
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eventhough i did just say terrible things about my parents in my lj, i do have the best ones in the world, and i feel really bad now because they read that comment, and I saw the dissappointment in my dads eyes, and thats the worst feeling in the world and i feel terrible so i just want everyone to know that i love my parents more than anything in the world <3 peace |
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[Jan. 18th, 2005|09:04 pm] |
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| | Best badn ever-Jet Black New Year | ] |
You Are 23 Years Old |
23
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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so do you think this is proof enough to buy? damn me either o well |
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[Jan. 13th, 2005|06:14 pm] |
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| | Thursday-Tomorrow i'll be you | ] |
And all I need to know is that I'm something you'll be missin'
Well, maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that..
I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to, I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to, I'll do what I got to
The truth...is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
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[Jan. 11th, 2005|11:00 pm] |
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| | thursday-hole in the world | ] |
wow |
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| drew and his counterparts |
[Dec. 17th, 2004|11:06 pm] |
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| | Thursday-Paris in flames | ] |
drew this is for you. read it and take what you want from it, this sums up my opinion
I don't believe that you can just define emo music. I realize that while trying to explain the music to someone who is completely lost that certain key words pop up, but I've heard songs that are completely emo and entail only a guitar and one vocal. I understand what you're attempting to do and I think it's applaudable; I just hate to see this fresh new music genre with such vast potential box itself while it is still an infant. I believe emo could become one of the rare forms of art that just keeps evolving and growing stronger and more diversified while still retaining its original intentions - to drop all the hype and speak to people on the same level while bringing them into your world and sharing your hopes, dreams, fears, beliefs, and convictions - all through a music so emotionally charged, so energetic and yet hypnotizing. Punk Rock could never offer that. Some bands are attempting to pass their brand of punk off as emo. But there is a difference. With any other genre of music a person can study and copy the generally accepted sounds and wham! that's the style. However with emo, the music comes from your heart, your soul, your spirit and that gets translated into vocals and riffs and beats and so on. But you must have some sort of spirit, that special something which gets projected from the music - even through a cd - and reaches a person, an individual and touches them.
there you go drew an opinion peace
crossno |
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| wow |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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its pretty amazing. Floodlight is tomorrow, thats awesome. Tonight was definately interesting. Im glad it happened. I am glad that some people have balls and said how they felt. To all of you involved im proud that you showed your true colors. You are all amazing and some of you are my heroes. I am sorry you had to put up with that for four years. I appreciate you, and you guys make the show in my opinion. Without you truly we would have no show. Your work over the years has been great, and i thank you for all the work and time that you have put in. The past years have been absolutely wonderful. I will miss our fun times we have had. I also want to commend you on your character. You were adults today and handled it the best as possible and perfect. Again all your true colors were shown today, and so were theirs. Nice job and it is too bad that it happened but good on the other hand cuz it was finally addressed. I wish we could have more shows together but we must move on sometime as well. Good luck and keep on doing such a great jub guys
-Noah |
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| You'll always be my Konstantine |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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| |  fsdf;dlkj;lsdkjsd;kfjsd; | ] |
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| | Soco-Konstantine | ] |
pullin out the emo entry now. The only song that matters or means anything at the moment.
I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But i'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams
And you tell me that it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
And your restless, and i'm naked
You've gotta get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
No
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so
And you don't wanna be here in the future
So you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
And you don't wanna look much closer
Cause your afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had crashed
And it did
Because of me
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room to live
I had these dreams that I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
Well I don't think I care
And if I hurt you
Then I'm sorry
Please don't think that this was easy
Then you bring me home
Cause we both know what it's like to be alone
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room to live
And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do is touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking that these nights
When we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
No
This is because I can spell confusion with a k
And I like it
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said
What you thought this song meant
And if this is what it takes
Just to lie in my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
And all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
It's 11:11
And now you want to talk
It's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like I do
No they'll never hurt you like I do
No, no, no no no no no no
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the pretty things she did
Hey
You know
You keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
With all the fucked up things I did
Hey
Maybe
Baby
You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie Screen
And I said
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Did you know I missed you?
Oh god I miss you
And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
And you'll kiss me in your living room
I know
You'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live
My Konstantine |
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| dunno |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|09:33 pm] |
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| | Coheed and Cambria- In keeping secrets of silent earth 3 | ] |
yeh i havent updated in a while so i guess now is a good time cuz there is nothing else to do. well im grounded og tcaught with booze for the thrice time. Well yeh time to stop that. Shouldnt have ever done it in the first, second or third place but yeh so im grounded till prolly floodlight but whatever i deserve it. now its time to get emo on you all. A lot of my friendships are fading.....fast. which sucks, but i guess its better now than in a couple months when i go off to college. Either way im going to miss them especially the one thats fading the fastest, but whatev life goes on people change. i think im going to go play my guitar, write a song possibly so if there is another post of a song later ill let you all know peace
Noah |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 1st, 2004|08:29 pm] |
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| | pensive | ] |
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| | Coheed and Cambria- Delirium Trigger | ] |
finally throwin in the towel. i have been hangin on to it for too long should have thrown it in a long time ago, and listened to everyone but whatever its done now. but yeh now less serious im just schilling here in california. last night unfortunatly:(. but o well election is tommorrow hopefully John Squared pulls througfh i have faith they will but im out gotta catch an early flight at 7:45 see you all on wednesday peace.
Noah |
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| What the fuck? |
[Oct. 6th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
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lol this was cute i must say lol it made me giggle |
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